So I have been using the internet for a bit now (heh) and to be honest most things on here bore me. I may find something interesting and make it a part of my routine but only momentarily until something like having a baby distracts me and I have to shorten my routine somehow.
For me it really is about routine. I get up every morning with Kadin just about the same time. I change his diaper, pee, put dirty diaper in garbage - his diaper...come on people - and then I sit at the computer for what may be the only time I have the chance to.
I check Hasan's email, my Yahoo email and then my hotmail account. But throughout this emtire process I cannot actually wait to get to the real reason I am sitting there in the first place - www.dooce.com.
Hasan turned me onto the site telling me this girl was some sort of internet phenom. "Everyone reads her site Tonia....everyone."
Really? Well lets just see how long this Heather/Dooce individual lasts in my routine!
I've never looked back and I never miss an entry or a pic of the day. Why you might ask? Well I won't answer cause I am sure it is the same reasons everyone gives for reading. Ok... gosh darn it...here goes.
Dooce is smart and witty and a fantastic writer and funny...but for me she is honest...to a fault really. She tells us about her day and her little girl and her husband and all the things she has done in life - the good the bad and the oh so dirty.
Many times I have tried to figure out how to jump on the www.dooce.com bandwagon and have people all over the world read my site and all about my little boy the way they read about her, but alas the intensity I had about that is humourous to me now.
I really just want to read her site everyday and enjoy it just for myself. A part of my daily routine I have left for me.
I was always such a blog doubter and thought it to be silly. Even when setting up this site I was so determined to have things a certain way and to only allow my family to see the site. I even had Hasan password protect the entire site! hehe
But now with Heather's site I can see the door's she has opened not only to the internet and for the internet, but for herself. I can see how she uses her site to reach out to everyone including her family and friends. How she uses the site to make valid points about government, real life craziness and super selling Avon ladies. Now that's not to say she hasn't suffered for her level of openess - go ahead read the site and you will see that her success with Dooce has come at a price.
Anyways OK before I start to sound too mushy and crazed I will stop. I just want people to go and have a look and enjoy. Today I chose to write about her because what she wrote about the U2 performance last night on the Grammy's; and I think she just about summed up everything I would have said about the show. I was floored by the words of the song and sadly how it all too often affects all of us in our relationships with parents.
My greatest fear - as I'm sure is every parents - is that I will screw Kadin up somehow. That one day I won't support him when he needs it most or I'll make fun of something he thinks is quite serious or I will tease him at the worst possible time and the result will be him becoming a huge rock star and making millions and singing a sad sad song about me in front of thousands of screaming fans..........or ya know...something else terrible like that. hehe
Yeah I'm not so good at emotional stuff but I think the 10 people who read this site know what I mean. Thanks www.dooce.com.
Posted by at February 14, 2005 09:40 AM