June 26, 2004

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It's currently 11:41 PM; both Tonia & Kadin are in bed while I muck around.

Tonia, before you stab me in the eye with a shoe, I CAN change the site back!

Today was a tough day. It actually started last night when Kadin was awake until after midnight, then woke up about 2 hours after he went down and stayed up again for about a month. Then we were all up again at 7 (well, I was up at 6:23 because Kadin wanted to both kick me in the junk and jab his thumb into my eye) to drive Tonia to work.

I can't quite put my finger on what made the rest of the day so tough. I mean, Kadin is just a wonderful baby and I love him to death. Even when I want to jab a wooden spoon into my head when he either does his prolonged whining half-cry, or the barking cry which just cuts through your brain like a knife.

Tonia just looks more and more like a hero to me for doing this full time while I get my break by going to work.

I'm not getting down on myself though; I realize this is only the second day I've had Kadin all day, so I'm confident fairly soon I'll get a routine down pat.

Our new schedule with Tonia working weekends is taking quite a bit of adjusting as our time together has been axed significantly, and I will never ever be able to sleep in past 7 AM. Ever.

Another effect this is having is that not one single sentence I have written so far actually flows into the next one.

I like blue.

See? No flow.

But anyways, despite the exhaustion I'm feeling now and likely will continue to feel for quite some time, this is a great opportunity for me to spend some quality time with Kadin and spoil him while his mommy is at work. Ok, must be up in 6 hours 7 minutes...g'night!

Posted by Hasan at June 26, 2004 11:55 PM